Internet failure + Last night, this morning
July 1, 2010 § 9 Comments
AHHHHH TOTAL FAILURE LAST NIGHT!!!
Okay, so yesterday when I got home, the internet wasn’t working. Dmitri and I were trying to troubleshoot by reconnecting the router, calling up Verizon, etc etc etc. I even called my dad to ask if we paid the bills for the month.
This morning, Dmitri dug through our recycling bin and found a notice from the Apartment Leasing Office saying that the service from Verizon will terminate on June 30, 2010. I totally just FAILLLLLLLLL at reading notices. The entire apartment complex is transferring to FiOS, but we gotta go to the Leasing Office and set up an account with them first. So I guess that’s what I’ll be doing when I get back home after work today. I’m not sure how long it’ll take for them to get our wireless working in our house.
ANYHOO, I realized something yesterday while we experienced the technology blackout. I freaked out for about 30 minutes when we found out the internet wasn’t working, because I totally had 2/3 of a post written up ready to be finished and published. But then I thought, Hey, why not make tonight a technology detox day? I suggested that to Dmitri, and he made a statement of how his life depends on the internet. We then went into a 20-min argument about internet vs no internet.
Here were some of my thoughts. Nowadays, we depend soooo much on the internet and other technology that we forget to slow down and enjoy the present moment. While the internet does bring people together (hi bloggistas!), it also alienates people. Back in those days when computers, TV, and internet were purely dreams or magic, families would gather together after dinner and have quality-bonding time. Today, kids and parents disperse after dinner and whisk away their times on the internet.
Naturally, yesterday I had quality-bonding time with Dmitri :-). It was really nice to experience the slower pace that an internet-free evening brought. Besides making a run for frozen yogurt, we pretty much just talked about whatever came to our minds the entire night. It was also a time for my eyes to rest, instead of staring at the blaringly-bright computer screen for hours, blogging, reading, commenting.
Without further adieu, here’s what I wrote up yesterday. So “last night” actually refers to the night of 6/29, and “this morning” refers to 6/30.
Last night, I got a little too cozy with these…despite them being “light.”
This morning, my yoga mat was left to be lonely.
Last night (or rather, this am) at 12:30 midnight, I woke up to go the the bathroom. Afterwards I tried to get back to sleep, and usually I zonk out immediately. Last night, however, was one of those days.
I was restless. I tossed and turned in my bed. So I thought a little “snack” could put me back to bed. When it comes to midnight snacking, I need to exercise a tremendous amount of control over myself. My body at this hour is probably entering the hungry mode, as it hasn’t had fuel for at least 4 hours now. During these dangerous hours I tend to be snacky, and go for high-carb and high-fat food items like cookies, ice cream, bread. Sometimes I can control myself by going for some fruits. Sometimes I just lose control.
Last night was the latter.
I was too full to go back to bed right after, so I stayed up for about an hour for the food to settle, all the while surfing the internet and such.
Naturally, when I got woken up by my alarm at 5:40am this morning, I had no intention of stepping on my mat because of the lack of sleep. I tried to let myself sleep till 7:30, but for some odd reason or the other I couldn’t. I HATE it when that happens. My body definitely needed more sleep than that, but it was being so stubborn and restless.
At 6:50am, I gave up on trying to sleep. I got up and made myself a giant portion of Green Monster smoothie to get a healthy jumpstart for the day after last night’s midnight binge.
I knew that I wouldn’t be able to go back to bed for a long period of time after eating all those carbs and fats, yet I did it. I knew my body didn’t need that much food at that hour, and yet I stuffed it. I knew that I’d feel horrible an hour later, the morning after, and that entire day, and yet I did it.
I’d like to think that I’m pretty in tune with my body, letting it rest when it needs it, fueling it the right kinds of food. But there are still those occasional binges that set me back and have me start all over again. I usually try to just forget it and move on, ’cause I know dwelling in those negative thoughts would just make me upset, then eat more, then be more upset, then eat, eat, eat. It’s a dangerous and negative cycle folks. I must try to break out of it.
After a binge, I’d ask myself these questions:
- Was I stressed?
- Was I upset about something?
- Am I tired and not getting enough sleep, hence kicking my hormones out of whack?
- Were there any trigger foods or thoughts?
- Was I hungry?
- Did I binge because I was eating too little calories the days before?
- Was I bored?
My midnight munchie attacks usually don’t fit into any of those categories. Well, I guess more in the triggering food category, since I would usually start out with something healthy, and just sort of lose it.
I guess I still have alot to learn about my body after all.
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+ Do you get midnight munchie attacks? What do you do the next day to break out of the binge cycle?